T_____T

I STILL FEEL GROSS!

IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE! MY COMPULSIONS CAN'T HANDLE SOMETHING OF THIS MAGNITUDE! I NEED SOMEONE TO YELL AT!

DAMMNITITI!

-goes to the corner to cry to sleep-

Apologies

I wanted you guys to know that I am sorry for all but exploding emo last night. Not that I'm much better at the current but I guess we'll see how much worse it can get.

I'm fighting down the urge to go throw up everything I've eaten in the past week, main thing is that someone is sure to notice and I really don't want to explain everything to the people I live with (how pathetic is that?).

Am going to go fail at sleep.

Ciao.

Burn-Out

I think I finally burned out.

I really can't handle it anymore here.

I've already just now turned in a late paper that doesn't meet the minimum requirements, which is something I NEVER do.

I just don't do that.

I've always been so damned good at getting things done and turned in, even at the last minute...but not tonight. Something's wrong...something has BEEN wrong for about a month now. I've been in some funk, and I just can't function right.

I don't know when I've felt this disappointed in myself; I can't afford to fuck up now, especially right at the end of the year like this. I'm possibly failing math, and if I fail this English class, and my Journalism class, then I've no fucking chance at graduating next year.

None.

Zilch.

Zip.

Fucking Nada.

What a load of "pride and joy" I am for my family, eh?