Oi vey...

So...much...turkey.

So...much more....dressing.

So much food, so little time.

gah...

I'm not going to sleep yet. I'm staying up to go buy me a new computer. Hurroo.

After this purchase, I'll have just over $100 in my account left. Boo.

But...new computer. Yay.

Amen

Happy Turkey-Day all.

Mr. Ingersoll puts it quite nicely. Sure this wasn't actually his Thanksgiving Day speech, but sentiments transcend time.

Home

I'm home.

Whoopee.

Already dying of allergies.

Thanksgiving will be a blast, I know it.

I think I found a $200 computer.

Thanksgiving Plans

Goin' home ASAP on Monday. Will be there for the week. Thanksgiving Break.

Not really having family over or anything; just me 'n the parentals.

I hope to see you while I'm there.

I miss you so much.

I love you.

Well...

it snowed here.

2am. Big flakes. Huge.

Not cold enough to stay, but still pretty out.

Pigout tomorrow. Hopefully not too cold.

Ohhells..

I know that breaking up with someone is never easy. This time has been particularly rough..not because I'm sad or regretting it (because I'm not). I just wasn't expecting it to be so hard on the other person. They say hindsight is 20/20 and I'm starting to realize I had become everything to this person even though I mentally checked myself out of the relationship a long time ago.

I'm struggling to be kind and nice and understanding, I'm answering his questions and spinning lies to make it all a bit easier on him. I do only want him to be happy but I need him to realize he wasn't going to be happy with me.

I'm also super frustrated that he's now trying to make changes and whatnot that would have saved the relationship a months ago... looking for a job in Charlotte? Really..wtf!

I hate people.

And now he wants someone to take him out shooting when he's never shot before and was terrified of my sig? I am so done.

There Was Much Wailing and Gnashing of Teeth...

...but Jesus said "O ye of little faith!" and he threw open the box and lo! Mary was whole, and the crowd went absolutely bananas.

Sometimes

Sometimes it's really hard to talk.
Sometimes it's next to impossible.

It used to be so easy, so free.
I don't really know what changed, but I wish that easiness would return.

I'm sorry for whatever I did, and I want to make it better.
I'm sorry I don't have as much to say as I used to...you know me too well.

I get frustrated because I don't want to leave awkward silence as my answer.
It's so complicated for us, and there's no reason it should be.

I don't think like you, like others.
When I have nothing on my mind, there is nothing.

Others have nothing important on their mind, when I have absolutely nothing.
Even fleeting thoughts are scarce, but I can't make you or others see that I do not think like you.

I'm sorry for being so hollow, so bland and empty and uncharacteristic.
I'm sorry for failing you left and right, time after time after time.

I don't know how to help the situation; I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry...

We made rules, established guidelines to avoid confusion - it doesn't work.
There's still an unspoken tension that neither of us can quite relieve.

I want it gone. I want us back. Why is it so awkward?

O.A.R.

O.A.R.'s coming to campus to perform tonight.

I don't really remember anything of their's, so it'll be interesting to go see them.

Here's a refresher to anyone who doesn't remember them. That's really the only song of their's that I remember, so maybe it'll be a good concert.

Cya.

**UPDATE**

Well, VaCo (Virginia Coalition) sucked as an opener. O.A.R. did good, they did a cover of Joe Cocker's "With a little help from my friends", or whatever the title is. It was enjoyable enough. I mean, it's O.A.R. Whoopee.

Chaos

My entire life is chaos. There are a million things I want to do right this instant but I'm stuck home with the sniffles and no vehicle. BAH!

I want to be out of this house, I want to be on the road but at the same time I want to be snuggled up with Brandon and enjoying the hell out of his tongue piercing.

I also want my dog to stay clean for longer than 5 seconds..but that is pretty much impossible.

At least I'm going to have a good lunch!

Treasure Time

Today's the big day for our Treasure Hunt.

We'll get to see who wins the $1000 prize.

Everyone who competed and got a key will get something, but there can be only one immortal er, grand winner.

Hopefully all will go well.

War...on the Middle Class?

Lou Dobbs is a moron.

He's hosting a segment titled "War on the Middle Class: thousands lose jobs" or something.

It just came on TV now, but when it's posted online, I'll update.

I should've updated when he had his "War on the Homeless" spiel.

I hate TV.

Well...

Birthday was Thursday.

It was okay, except for the whole 'feeling like I'm dying' thing.

I can actually swallow food / beverage without feeling like I've just been stabbed in the chest today.

So that's a good thing.

Yeah.

hurghrflphurgh

That's how I feel.

Apparently I now suffer from indigestion, and boy, is it fun.

In other news...we're watching "Good Night, and Good Luck" in Journalism.

It's a great movie, I admit, but indigestion kills everything.

Do you know what it's like to burp up the taste of metal? I don't know if that's a common feature of indigestion, but at least I know it really is evil.

Yes...

Yes we can.

Yes we DID.

This is worth one last look.

I've yet to see it until now personally, and for some reason my eyes are sweating.

I swear, it's allergies.

ARG!

FUCK YOU TOO PEOPLE. I'M GOING BACK UNDER MY BRIDGE AND YOU CAN THROW YOURSELF IN WHATEVER FUCKING WELL YOU'D LIKE. I'M NOT GOING TO BE THERE WHEN YOU CRY HELP THIS TIME.

It's a New Day

It's a new day, yes indeedy.

However, we need to see that things aren't going to be super-special-fun-time and there's no fantasy tale here.

PZ makes a valid point, and we need to realize that things won't instantly change, and the changes that DO take place, will probably be minimal.

Granted, any change is better than any policy under Bush, but hopefully some good will come of it.

Sadly, Proposition 8 passed in California. I haven't been too totally invested in this issue, but it would have been good for the LGBT community for that to have died.

Oh well...at least I still have plenty of booze for later this week.

Obama Wins

Obama wins!

Yeah!

NiN Last Night

I saw Nine Inch Nails last night.

It was unbelievably awesome.

I am still in awe.

For some reason, people kept trying to push me into mosh pits, despite my trying to move away from said pits. That was somewhat frustrating, but I got a few of the mashers in the back for trying to run me over.

There was a cat-fight before the show even started, which was funny.

At the tail end of "Hurt", some girl got on her guy's shoulders and flashed Trent. That was pretty awesome.

There was a lot of pot smoking during the Ghosts segments.
That wasn't as awesome, because I got hit in the face w/ smoke left and right.

Nails played a ton of music, a lot more than I expected, but was glad to see.

He started off with stuff from The Slip, then went to With Teeth songs, and then hit up staples like March of the Pigs, Wish, Last, and did a number of Ghosts songs with Year Zero stuff here and there. They did a few more staples like Hurt, The Wretched, another Slip song, and finished out with Year Zero works.

The backgrounds and themes were absolutely stunning.

March of the Pigs was definitely the most moshy song and everyone was in on it.

Trent also let us know that when playing The Hand that Feeds, this would be the last time they used that particular background, so at least I feel honored for that. Basically, it was a giant photo of Bush that, throughout the song, transformed into McCain. I don't know if there was any symbolism implied by that....surely not.... >_> Either way, it was an incredibly smooth transition and was pretty freakin' awesome.

I wish I could go see them perform every night. I hope to get enough money to go to a series of shows in a row some time.

I also wish you could have been there. I had fun, but it just didn't feel right.
I'll make it up to you, I swear.

NiN Tonight

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

It's gonna be awesome!

Saturday Night Madness

So...

Just caught the tail-end of the 1999 version of "Beowulf", and, yeah, I'm kinda disappointed. Sure, it has Christopher Lambert (of "Highlander" fame, I believe), but it didn't follow the book at all.

I'm now watching the Sfi-Fi Original, "Grendel". I have no hopes either.

Hopefully this will not kill me.