Sunday, December 28, 2008

things

steamers, swedish fish, wood, doro dango, vacuums.

These are a few of the things that have been my only entertainment for the past couple of days.

Is that just depressing as hell or what?

Friday, December 26, 2008

Something new

so I finally got around to putting a new blog of my own up.

http://bunicanwrite.blogspot.com/

It's a mess and a whole lot of emo (currently, thanks fuckers) but it'll get better... maybe >.>

Bigger Update than I Like

I'm cramming in info from the past couple of days instead of my usually daily chunk, so I apologize.

Yesterday:  Did the whole Christmas Eve service with the family.  Not really my choice, but at least we did something together.  It was...different...especially for an Episcopal church.  Given it's name was the Episcopal Church of the Ressurection, I guess you have to be a little more imaginative.  Sadly, I took of the body and blood of baby jesus.  I tried not to, but that wine was fiercely strong and forced me to swallow it all down.  Very grape-y, yes, but unbelievably strong.

Today:  Christmas morn'.  Argyle socks (very happy about those), a hat with LED lights for night riding, a beautiful pocket knife (though Kelly's is much much more cherished and wanted), a diploma frame, some shirts, and cookware stuffs.  In all, it's a pretty decent haul and dinner wasn't bad either.  Nice big ham on the grill, collard greens, sweet potato casserole, and lots of corn-bread.

ALSO:

After about two or so hours of hunting, I finally tracked down the Christmas special of Doctor Who.  My god, it was fantastic.  It was on par with all the other episodes.  However, there was no transition of Doctor(s).  No regeneration.  It was a really simple and very sweet story, nonetheless.  I'm still terribly sad that David Tennant is leaving his role as the Doctor, because I don't think any man can do better.  He is THE BEST Doctor the series has ever had, and it will be very unfortunate to see him go.  The remaining four or so Specials that will run through 2009 will be very much cherished, and I will steal all of them as they come.

Ta' for now.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Damn viruses...virii?

My laptop's infected.

I've been working on it for two days or so, and it's currently undergoing a very, very thorough scan finally.

I hope it'll get rid of the stuff. It's part of the trojan.vundo family, and has apparently already replicated itself a number of times, so every time I use the laptop it tells me of 200 more instances in which it was found. Hooray.

I hate bad Internet users.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Fleet Foxes

I've recently gotten my hands on Fleet Foxes' self-titled 2008 release.

It is absolutely brilliant in every regard.

"Tiger Mountain Peasant Song" is especially haunting, and the whole album just calls back to the 1960's when there was so much heart and love in music.

I can see why so many people and magazines have claimed this album to be in the top 50 of 2008, even top 10. I've seen a few place them at #1, with TV on the Radio's "Dear Science" album at #2. I'd say this is about right. I've never personally heard anything so...good in such a long time. It's so natural, and enjoyable. The whole album is so peaceful, it's unnerving. I really hope Fleet Foxes is here to stay. I'm picking up the LP as soon as I can for my collection.

Honestly, I don't care how you get a copy yourself, but do. You won't regret it. Seriously.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Thanks

I'll be sending a photo myself here soon. I'll probably post it here and everywhere soon.

Why not?

Happy Monkey!

Happy Monkey, everyone!

Spread the good cheer.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Keep an eye

out for Muntadar al-Zaidi.

You know, the guy who threw his shoes at W.

His exact location as of now is unknown, but it is alleged he suffers from a broken arm and ribs, with minor cuts here and there. There are fears of his being tortured and beaten because of his actions, despite his engaging in free speech which is pro...oh yeah...this was in Iraq.

W COULD be a gentleman and push to spare and forgive the guy, but you know this won't happen.

One less 'raggy to pave the way for Good Ol' America, yeah?

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

How Seriously...

This is a list I found here on how seriously one takes their atheism. Below is the list, with the things I've done in color:

  1. Participated in the Blasphemy Challenge.
  2. Met at least one of the “Four Horsemen” (Richard Dawkins, Daniel Dennett, Christopher Hitchens, Sam Harris) in person.
  3. Created an atheist blog.
  4. Used the Flying Spaghetti Monster in a religious debate with someone.
  5. Gotten offended when someone called you an agnostic.
  6. Been unable to watch Growing Pains reruns because of Kirk Cameron.
  7. Own more Bibles than most Christians you know.
  8. Have at least one Bible with your personal annotations regarding contradictions, disturbing parts, etc.
  9. Have come out as an atheist to your family.
  10. Attended a campus or off-campus atheist gathering.
  11. Are a member of an organized atheist/Humanist/etc. organization.
  12. Had a Humanist wedding ceremony.
  13. Donated money to an atheist organization.
  14. Have a bookshelf dedicated solely to Richard Dawkins.
  15. Lost the friendship of someone you know because of your non-theism.
  16. Tried to argue or have a discussion with someone who stopped you on the street to proselytize.
  17. Hid your atheist beliefs on a first date because you didn’t want to scare him/her away.
  18. Own a stockpile of atheist paraphernalia (bumper stickers, buttons, shirts, etc).
  19. Attended a protest that involved religion.
  20. Attended an atheist conference.
  21. Subscribe to Pat Condell’s YouTube channel.
  22. Started an atheist group in your area or school.
  23. Successfully “de-converted” someone to atheism.
  24. Have already made plans to donate your body to science after you die.
  25. Told someone you’re an atheist only because you wanted to see the person’s reaction.
  26. Had to think twice before screaming “Oh God!” during sex. Or you said something else in its place.
  27. Lost a job because of your atheism.
  28. Formed a bond with someone specifically because of your mutual atheism (meeting this person at a local gathering or conference doesn’t count).
  29. Have crossed “In God We Trust” off of — or put a pro-church-state-separation stamp on — dollar bills.
  30. Refused to recite the Pledge of Allegiance.
  31. Said “Gesundheit!” (or nothing at all) after someone sneezed because you didn’t want to say “Bless you!”
    1. I've actually said that since I was in primary school, when I first learned it. Nowadays it's b/c of the religious connotation.
  32. Have ever chosen not to clasp your hands together out of fear someone might think you’re praying.
  33. Have turned on Christian TV because you need something entertaining to watch.
  34. Are a 2nd or 3rd (or more) generation atheist.
  35. Have “atheism” listed on your Facebook or dating profile — and not a euphemistic variant.
  36. Attended an atheist’s funeral (i.e. a non-religious service).
  37. Subscribe to an freethought magazine (e.g. Free Inquiry, Skeptic)
  38. Have been interviewed by a reporter because of your atheism.
  39. Written a letter-to-the-editor about an issue related to your non-belief in God.
  40. Gave a friend or acquaintance a New Atheist book as a gift.
  41. Wear pro-atheist clothing in public.
  42. Have invited Mormons/Jehovah’s Witnesses into your house specifically because you wanted to argue with them.
  43. Have been physically threatened (or beaten up) because you didn’t believe in God.
  44. Receive Google Alerts on “atheism” (or variants).
  45. Received fewer Christmas presents than expected because people assumed you didn’t celebrate it.
  46. Visited The Creation Museum or saw Ben Stein’s Expelled just so you could keep tabs on the “enemy.”
    1. I saw "Expelled" and was appalled. Saw "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" that same night (for free), so it wasn't too bad overall. I do plan on going to that museum soon, however.
  47. Refuse to tell anyone what your “sign” is… because it doesn’t matter at all.
  48. Are on a mailing list for a Christian organization just so you can see what they’re up to…
  49. Have kept your eyes open while you watched others around you pray.
  50. Avoid even Unitarian churches because they’re too close to religion for you.
It's an interesting list of things. I've done more of them than I first thought.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

beautiful

America the beautiful...

supposed to be the home of the brave

and the land of the free -

where the truth's actually hidden

stored away so we can't see

all the hypocrisy

loss of privacy

so many without even a dollar to buy a happy -

meal for their kids.

So many people checkin' their shoulders

to the left and the right

never knowin' who's gonna come in the night

take them away -

never again to see the light of day -

but now America's one step closer freedom

and to the American way.

Foreign Dem-o-crat-i-za-tion

is just political imitation.

little flag pins and hours of smilin'

not gonna help all the people who are dyin'

in the streets

on their feet

can't be near the police

without fear of gettin' beat

just for the color of their skin -

for their perceived religion.

Just remember...

you're not always looked at strange,

and seen for what's on the out-side.

Some of us d0 care...

for what people are,

on the in-side.

Doesn't matter if you're white or black

or wear a hijab,

not all of us are who make

up this political mob,

that's poisoned our mentality -

sore-ly dis-torted our reality.

The time has come; there's change

in two-thousand and eight.

This is the new home of the brave.

It's a new land of the free.

It's time for the world to see,

that America can be beautiful again.

Brothers and sisters we have to

work hand in hand.

We have to make America

beautiful again.

--Copyright 2008--

This is mine. I made it, and now I claim it. I have staked a flag in this piece of creative territory. You use it, please let me know. I'm not asking for money, but if you make money off of it, be damned aware that I'll be asking for a share. Like...15% would do. And not for the initial sales; I mean the bigger 15%, the one after yearly sales are factored and all. You're my cash cow now. Congratulations.

And yes, credit goes to whoever coined "America the Beautiful", "Home of the brave" and "land of the free".

update-a-lizzle-lazzle

Well, I'm back home now, and exams are done. I don't really know how I did on any of them since grades haven't been posted (also, today was officially the last day of exams, AND the last day for students to move out of the dorms before being fined).

So far, I've gotten my hand on a good number of albums, most of them unknowns (but all of them pretty damn good). One of my early favorites is Klaus & Kinski. Good luck finding anything on them. So far, all my searches have really only resulted in their MySpace page, and the rest of them are about some German actor named Klaus Kinski. I'm also looking forward to hearing Jay Reatard (yes, his real name), Whitest Boy Alive, and Benji Hughes (a Charlotte, NC native). I'll update later and link to their respective info pages.

I also got to open up one of my Christmas gifts early - a computer desk so I'll have somewhere to put my new desktop that I got over Black Friday.

Tomorrow, I'm going with the parentals to meet some family for lunch. Bobbie and Laurie Norris. Bobbie's a fairly new preacher (been at it for at least a year now), and he's giving his spiel in Conway. They also want to visit the Coastal Grand Mall, as they've yet to go to it. It's bound to be a joyous day with this holy-rollin' duo.

Ah, well...such is life. One day you get a computer, the next you're dining with preachers.

Off to dreamland now.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Sadly

Despite the good news of my completion of yet another hellish semester...

Bettie Page has died.

85 years old.

Shame.

Finis

it is done

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Monday, December 8, 2008

La Biblioteca

I be studyin' here.

Hooray "finals week".

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWD!

Apparently I can get a "free" 'Red Blood of Jesus Prayer Handkerchief'.

Apparently, it's actually a loaner hanky. When you receive it, you're expected to return it with the amount of money you'd like to receive after he prays for you. A simple donation of $50 works fine with him.

Good ol' Pastor Kerney Thomas. Great videos can be found on the youtube.

Or you can find him every morning from 4-5am on BET.

It's a nice looking hanky, but I don't want to suffer from a flooding mailbox.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Friday, December 5, 2008

Y'all

Last day of classes. I'm in the final class now.

Also! Happy 21st Amendment Day!

I actually may be imbibing a bit (friend's birthday tonight, funnily enough).

Hurroo!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Papers III

3 down.

3 left.

Somehow I'm making it.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Caliban is not-so-much a sovereign-based subject in a relationship between the colonizer and the colonized...

but he should be seen in a bio-political standpoint. If Caliban is defined by Prospero, then Prospero is defined by Caliban.


Yeah.

Don't you see it too?

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

*Gleam*

I got it! I got it!

I checked my mailbox tonight, and lo and behold!

I got my Friendly Atheist wristband!

It's black, so I'm happier.

Hooray!

Papers, part deux

One down, five to go.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Anyone want to write papers for me?

I've got six papers to write, four of which need to be about 10 pages long.

Any takers?

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Oi vey...

So...much...turkey.

So...much more....dressing.

So much food, so little time.

gah...

I'm not going to sleep yet. I'm staying up to go buy me a new computer. Hurroo.

After this purchase, I'll have just over $100 in my account left. Boo.

But...new computer. Yay.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Amen

Happy Turkey-Day all.

Mr. Ingersoll puts it quite nicely. Sure this wasn't actually his Thanksgiving Day speech, but sentiments transcend time.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Home

I'm home.

Whoopee.

Already dying of allergies.

Thanksgiving will be a blast, I know it.

I think I found a $200 computer.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Thanksgiving Plans

Goin' home ASAP on Monday. Will be there for the week. Thanksgiving Break.

Not really having family over or anything; just me 'n the parentals.

I hope to see you while I'm there.

I miss you so much.

I love you.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Well...

it snowed here.

2am. Big flakes. Huge.

Not cold enough to stay, but still pretty out.

Pigout tomorrow. Hopefully not too cold.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Ohhells..

I know that breaking up with someone is never easy. This time has been particularly rough..not because I'm sad or regretting it (because I'm not). I just wasn't expecting it to be so hard on the other person. They say hindsight is 20/20 and I'm starting to realize I had become everything to this person even though I mentally checked myself out of the relationship a long time ago.

I'm struggling to be kind and nice and understanding, I'm answering his questions and spinning lies to make it all a bit easier on him. I do only want him to be happy but I need him to realize he wasn't going to be happy with me.

I'm also super frustrated that he's now trying to make changes and whatnot that would have saved the relationship a months ago... looking for a job in Charlotte? Really..wtf!

I hate people.

And now he wants someone to take him out shooting when he's never shot before and was terrified of my sig? I am so done.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

There Was Much Wailing and Gnashing of Teeth...

...but Jesus said "O ye of little faith!" and he threw open the box and lo! Mary was whole, and the crowd went absolutely bananas.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Sometimes

Sometimes it's really hard to talk.
Sometimes it's next to impossible.

It used to be so easy, so free.
I don't really know what changed, but I wish that easiness would return.

I'm sorry for whatever I did, and I want to make it better.
I'm sorry I don't have as much to say as I used to...you know me too well.

I get frustrated because I don't want to leave awkward silence as my answer.
It's so complicated for us, and there's no reason it should be.

I don't think like you, like others.
When I have nothing on my mind, there is nothing.

Others have nothing important on their mind, when I have absolutely nothing.
Even fleeting thoughts are scarce, but I can't make you or others see that I do not think like you.

I'm sorry for being so hollow, so bland and empty and uncharacteristic.
I'm sorry for failing you left and right, time after time after time.

I don't know how to help the situation; I don't know what to do.
I'm sorry...

We made rules, established guidelines to avoid confusion - it doesn't work.
There's still an unspoken tension that neither of us can quite relieve.

I want it gone. I want us back. Why is it so awkward?

O.A.R.

O.A.R.'s coming to campus to perform tonight.

I don't really remember anything of their's, so it'll be interesting to go see them.

Here's a refresher to anyone who doesn't remember them. That's really the only song of their's that I remember, so maybe it'll be a good concert.

Cya.

**UPDATE**

Well, VaCo (Virginia Coalition) sucked as an opener. O.A.R. did good, they did a cover of Joe Cocker's "With a little help from my friends", or whatever the title is. It was enjoyable enough. I mean, it's O.A.R. Whoopee.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Chaos

My entire life is chaos. There are a million things I want to do right this instant but I'm stuck home with the sniffles and no vehicle. BAH!

I want to be out of this house, I want to be on the road but at the same time I want to be snuggled up with Brandon and enjoying the hell out of his tongue piercing.

I also want my dog to stay clean for longer than 5 seconds..but that is pretty much impossible.

At least I'm going to have a good lunch!

Treasure Time

Today's the big day for our Treasure Hunt.

We'll get to see who wins the $1000 prize.

Everyone who competed and got a key will get something, but there can be only one immortal er, grand winner.

Hopefully all will go well.

Monday, November 10, 2008

War...on the Middle Class?

Lou Dobbs is a moron.

He's hosting a segment titled "War on the Middle Class: thousands lose jobs" or something.

It just came on TV now, but when it's posted online, I'll update.

I should've updated when he had his "War on the Homeless" spiel.

I hate TV.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Well...

Birthday was Thursday.

It was okay, except for the whole 'feeling like I'm dying' thing.

I can actually swallow food / beverage without feeling like I've just been stabbed in the chest today.

So that's a good thing.

Yeah.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

hurghrflphurgh

That's how I feel.

Apparently I now suffer from indigestion, and boy, is it fun.

In other news...we're watching "Good Night, and Good Luck" in Journalism.

It's a great movie, I admit, but indigestion kills everything.

Do you know what it's like to burp up the taste of metal? I don't know if that's a common feature of indigestion, but at least I know it really is evil.

Yes...

Yes we can.

Yes we DID.

This is worth one last look.

I've yet to see it until now personally, and for some reason my eyes are sweating.

I swear, it's allergies.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

ARG!

FUCK YOU TOO PEOPLE. I'M GOING BACK UNDER MY BRIDGE AND YOU CAN THROW YOURSELF IN WHATEVER FUCKING WELL YOU'D LIKE. I'M NOT GOING TO BE THERE WHEN YOU CRY HELP THIS TIME.

It's a New Day

It's a new day, yes indeedy.

However, we need to see that things aren't going to be super-special-fun-time and there's no fantasy tale here.

PZ makes a valid point, and we need to realize that things won't instantly change, and the changes that DO take place, will probably be minimal.

Granted, any change is better than any policy under Bush, but hopefully some good will come of it.

Sadly, Proposition 8 passed in California. I haven't been too totally invested in this issue, but it would have been good for the LGBT community for that to have died.

Oh well...at least I still have plenty of booze for later this week.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Obama Wins

Obama wins!

Yeah!

NiN Last Night

I saw Nine Inch Nails last night.

It was unbelievably awesome.

I am still in awe.

For some reason, people kept trying to push me into mosh pits, despite my trying to move away from said pits. That was somewhat frustrating, but I got a few of the mashers in the back for trying to run me over.

There was a cat-fight before the show even started, which was funny.

At the tail end of "Hurt", some girl got on her guy's shoulders and flashed Trent. That was pretty awesome.

There was a lot of pot smoking during the Ghosts segments.
That wasn't as awesome, because I got hit in the face w/ smoke left and right.

Nails played a ton of music, a lot more than I expected, but was glad to see.

He started off with stuff from The Slip, then went to With Teeth songs, and then hit up staples like March of the Pigs, Wish, Last, and did a number of Ghosts songs with Year Zero stuff here and there. They did a few more staples like Hurt, The Wretched, another Slip song, and finished out with Year Zero works.

The backgrounds and themes were absolutely stunning.

March of the Pigs was definitely the most moshy song and everyone was in on it.

Trent also let us know that when playing The Hand that Feeds, this would be the last time they used that particular background, so at least I feel honored for that. Basically, it was a giant photo of Bush that, throughout the song, transformed into McCain. I don't know if there was any symbolism implied by that....surely not.... >_> Either way, it was an incredibly smooth transition and was pretty freakin' awesome.

I wish I could go see them perform every night. I hope to get enough money to go to a series of shows in a row some time.

I also wish you could have been there. I had fun, but it just didn't feel right.
I'll make it up to you, I swear.

Monday, November 3, 2008

NiN Tonight

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

I'm going to see Nine Inch Nails tonight.

It's gonna be awesome!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Saturday Night Madness

So...

Just caught the tail-end of the 1999 version of "Beowulf", and, yeah, I'm kinda disappointed. Sure, it has Christopher Lambert (of "Highlander" fame, I believe), but it didn't follow the book at all.

I'm now watching the Sfi-Fi Original, "Grendel". I have no hopes either.

Hopefully this will not kill me.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Why?

Why is it so damned hard for people to understand the critical importance of this election, and see that for this country to have ANY chance of surviving, we canNOT allow McFailin' to get elected?!

Here is yet another example of just how inane the Republican Party has become, and this should scare people. People should see that the Republican ticket is THE WORST possible choice out there.

It makes no sense.

None.

One Week

I got to spend an entire week with Kelly.

I don't know when I've been so happy.

We have a ton of photos, and I'm sure I'll be posting a good number of them.

^_____^

I MISS YOU BABY!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Your Sunday Dose of Metal

Iron Maiden: "The Trooper (live at Ullevi)"



Up The Irons!

The Volume too!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

-headdesk-

Well, it seems our treasure hunt is going swimmingly.

Contestants have been trying to pry open Police Call Boxes all over campus to find our key, when we explicitly stated in several emails that the keys are NOT hidden within things, but placed on or as near to as possible, and will always be mostly visible. NEVER HIDDEN WITHIN THINGS.

I got a call from Campus Police 20 minutes after hearing word and promptly sending out a massive email telling people (in a much, much nicer way) to not be FUCKING MORONS about it.

Seriously, when did people stop thinking at get so goddamn stupid? Jesus.

My head hurts from the stupidity.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Love

Love you.

Miss you.

<3

Atheist Spirituality?

I finally got around to buying Andre Comte-Sponville's The Little Book of Atheist Spirituality.

I've gotten about 20 pages in, and it's kept my attention so far. I'm not usually one for philosophical stuff, but I figured I need to learn to read the stuff.

I was hesitant on buying this book, at first, because of the idea of "Atheist Spirituality," which, I guess, is why I needed to buy it, to see if his idea makes sense. I think of spirituality as too closely tied to religion, and having belief in some deity. However, Comte-Sponville attempts to show how spirituality can be detached from religion, which is entailed in the last part of the book.

As of now, he's described the idea of communion. He argues that communion, a community of people brought together by similar ideas, can exist without religion, as is the case of early Buddhist and other "atheistic" religions. The main gist is:

Society has yet to exist without religion, because societies have yet to live long enough to move into that point. Society cannot exist without communion. Communion does not have to be based on religion, however. So, does this mean that society can exist without religion?


This is a question I've been pondering myself, and want to read more into his explanation of whether or not this is possible. It's pretty thought-provoking stuffs.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Biden vs Palin vs Iron Man

Well, I was watching the debate tonight, and realized after an hour I had no idea what the hell was going on.

We're now watching Iron Man on Blu-Ray.

I've never seen the movie in theaters, so, this is new to me.

*ahem*

I'm alive and well. I apologize for last night.

The VP Debate is tomorrow. I could use a good laugh.

T_____T

I STILL FEEL GROSS!

IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE! MY COMPULSIONS CAN'T HANDLE SOMETHING OF THIS MAGNITUDE! I NEED SOMEONE TO YELL AT!

DAMMNITITI!

-goes to the corner to cry to sleep-

Damnit, God!

-sighs- Tonight's been shite after I finished talking to Kelly. I should've just gone straight to bed after then.

The Bailout Bill gets passed.

I end up caught in the middle of a group prayer for someone I don't really know, and all of a sudden the priest from El Salvador prays for me in two languages.

NOW, Pat Condell is facing having his channel banned from YouTube because they're fucking pussies and won't stand up for freedom of speech, but would rather kowtow to Islamic Radicals in Turkey and Pakistan. If his channel gets removed, I'm closing my account. Simple as that. Fuck youtube. FUCK YOUTUBE!

I want to take a shower now, and will, but the icky feeling of being prayed for (yet again) will NOT go away so easily.

Damnit. Damnit. Damnit.

*UPDATE*

Apparently, it's spelled "dammit", and if I want to spell it my way, it's "damn it". I've spelled it wrong for as long as I can remember.

Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.

DAMMIT GOD!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I'm flyin' high...

Van Morrison's Astral Weeks is a fantastic album. I knew only a few of his works, but I'm glad I was told of this album. It's fantastic to listen to when you want to relax.

Today's a beautiful day. Not too warm, with a light breeze that could stand to pick up the pace a little. It's only Tuesday, but the week already seems like it's been too, too long. I miss Kelly, and I want to make her happy, but I'm stuck here. We'll work through it, though. She's fantastic.

Hopefully I'll be done soon. -shrugs-

Monday, September 29, 2008

I Been Thinkin'...(1)

I've been thinking. More specifically, I've been thinking about a lot of things. The DOW is plummeting; The Bailout did not get passed in the House; Religious loonies are getting even louder somehow; the body members of my organization on campus are useless to the point of being absolutely pathetic; Parliament-Funkadelic is one of the greatest personal finds on the planet.

The Bailout didn't get passed, as I just said. That's fine with me, because the gov't needs to learn where to invest the money where good will come from it, not more people getting screwed over. All I know is that $700 BILLION was going to be given to banks that may or may not survive, and it was still iffy even if they had gotten the monies. I'm glad to see our economy screeching to a halt; it makes for one hell of a social stimulant. Wachovia was absorbed into Citigroup, so I'm wondering whether or not to withdraw all my monies and hide it under my bed, which isn't that crazy of an idea anymore.

With this failing industry of ours, we're going to see many foreign nations buying up our businesses and towns. Dubai has huge investments in half of the New York Skyline, so they profit as more people from outside travel into New York City. Fantastic.

Religious loonies are apparently bringing up talks of the Anti-Christ again; they have to be if even my mom was talking about it today. She asked me "just what is an Anti-Christ?" which...to be honest, I had never, ever expected myself to have that conversation with her. That was definitely one of the weirder of life's moments.

I'm part of the Resident Student Association, which to me sounds like a redundant name for an on-campus organization made up of students who are residents on said campus. The general body members are completely useless to the cause as hardly anyone shows up, and when they do, they don't contribute. Leeches. The board isn't that wonderful, either, and I'm part of the friggin' board. We don't plan well, and the president has a most delightful habit of being an outright dick at some of the worst times possible.

Parliament-Funkadelic: greatest find of the day, hands down. I love Funk, and I've been wanting to delve more into the genre, and I figured I'd look up more about Bootsy Collins, who is amazing in his own rights. Well, seeing that he was part of Parliament-Funkadelic, a collaboration between himself, George Clinton, and like 20 other guys, you just can't go wrong. P-Funk is just the head name of the group in general, as Parliament and Funkadelic were their own entities working under different labels. Both fantastic, both worth listening to. George Clinton is a genius for bringing all these people together. Easily one of my favorite songs is now "Maggot Brain"; it's an 11 minute guitar solo from the gods which a crazy-ass intro. What's not to love?

That's all for now.

I'm Healed

Praise be, I'm healed!

...well, about 80% healed. I've still a nasty cough and a bit of a sore throat.

Oh well.

Anyone seen "Fireproof", that new Kirk Cameron flick?

I'm going sometime this week, because there's nothing finer than right-wing inanity.

Monday, September 22, 2008

A cold - I haz it.

I can haz cure now?

gah...-sniffs and coughs-

I hate colds. My suite-mate gave it to me. A pox upon his household!

Despite this, I must study for an exam that's tomorrow, and also write a paper for Wednesday, and then study for a test on Friday.

I'm going to buy vitamins for the first time ever today, because I need all the firepower I can get on my side.

-coughs up lung- Aww! Cold got me again, motha fuckah!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

"Bitch got me again!"

I saw "The Condemned", a WWE film, the other night.

I'm not proud of it, but it was one of the greatest things ever.

My favorite line comes around midway-ish, when Kreston dies.

Basically, he's telling the story of how a woman betrayed him, only to find the woman he's telling the story to betrays him by setting off the bomb attached to his ankle. Right before he dies, he says:

"AWWW! Bitch got me again, motha fuckah!"

It's easily my favorite scene from any movie in the past.....year or so.

Here's a link, just skip to 7:50, and watch to about 8:04. You won't regret it.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Yarrrrr!

Ahoy, ye land lubbers!

'tis Talk Like a Pirate Day!

Be ye a bilge rat, or a salty sea dog?

'm off to pillage! Yarrr!

*update*

Avast, ye! Learn the piratical lingo!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Anniversaries

Today's the 25th anniversary of my parents' wedding.

Today is also the 7th anniversary of 9/11TM.

Happy 9/11TM, because it's no longer a day of mourning, but a day of exploitation.

May your God continue to bless America.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Your love...

it's too far gone...
gotta move right on...
Even after all - these - years,
I can see through - your tears.
Even after all - these - years,
I can still taste it - hear it - feel it,
Need it!
Hold it - know it - want it,
Love it!
Breathe it - believe it - conceive it,
Be it!

I'm not your lover anymore, ba-by,
Got my eyes on another life.
You're never what I had in mind, ba-by,
Got my eyes on another life.
I thought you really cared, ba-by,
But there's no room in your life.
You replied 'may-be', ba-by,
Now I'm out of your life.

Your love is too far gone...
gotta move right on...
Even after all - these - years,
I can see through - your tears.
Even after all - these - years,
I still can't get away.

**I came up with this in the shower, and decided to plot it down. I could make it into workable lyrics, but I may leave this as a spoken piece and fix it later.**

Sunday, September 7, 2008

I Survived

I survived another night of drinking last night. I'm finally feeling O.K. right now. I've really just been chilling in the suite all day recuperating. It was a sad party, though; myself, Nick and Wade, with the occasional visitor. Nobody we know wants to party, which is really sad.

Still missing Kelly. Hopefully we're gonna get to see each other soon. I just gotta get through classes a bit longer.

Nine Inch Nails is coming to Greensboro 11-03-08. I'm going to that. It will be the best night ever.

Ever.


Ever.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Ugh

I certainly must say that hitting the breaking point really does freaking suck.
Yaye for apartment shopping?

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Good News, Everybody!

The kitchen sink is fixed! It no longer leaks, so I can actually clean dishes again! Hooray!









Eh...that's really it.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Emerge from the unknown

/wave

Once again I wait forever before posting but it's been the first time in awhile that I've a moment to stop and breathe and think about life.

Lately a lot of people have been laid off at work (including one of my closest friends). Management claims we are doing well financially in the current economic downturn but none of us are really moronic enough to believe that. I'm not really worried about my own job anymore so its back to the "carefree fun and weird" attitude at work.

My entire family is now 3000 miles away and it breaks my heart that I'm not with them every time I think about it, which is fairly often. I know they are all far better off now that they are away from this hell-hole of a valley and I am so amazingly jealous for that.

Also recently I've been playing in a DnD 4th edition game. I haven't done a tabletop since starting high school and I've really forgotten how much fun it can be. It's really interesting how much the gameplay and rules have changed but it's been good to us so far. Our DM is levels of amazing that I've never encountered. I enjoy most of the people in the game and the rants I have about the others I don't enjoy as much are very entertaining (or so I'm told).

My relationship? Downswing..again. I know I know... I keep putting up with all the bullshite that I really shouldn't but I..hells if I know. Once again in the mood where I frequently imagine just packing all my shit and driving east...fuck all else. Meh.

I do have a new love in my life though. This little guy is just awesome and really brightens my life everytime I see him.







His name is Loki and he's a nearly 3month old pitbull mix. He's adorable and I love him to pieces.. even though he's in the teething stage of life and tries to eat me alive. >_>

Alright... I'm off for boozing it up so I don't have to be home alone.

<3

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Huzzah!

Go Deacs!

We won our first game tonight! 41-13!

It was great; this is going to be a good season.

Peace.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Blogging from the Panera

I'm here in Panera down Stratford with some friends. They're talking about some product they want to make and sell.

It's this weird tea that Paco made with a bunch of different herbs. I've tried it, but it didn't do anything for me, so I can leave it behind. Apparently it's supposed to help you with Astral Projection in your sleep. -shrugs-

I'm enjoying my Frozen Mocha and just listening to the "muzak" and missing Kelly. The first day of classes is next week, and I need to go get books and make sure I know where my classes are.

Oh well. At least it's a pretty day out.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

School Daze Are Here Again

Yes, I know, the title is grammatically incorrect. I said "Daze" instead of "Days" intentionally. It's funnier that way. Ha. Ha ha. Ha.

What is NOT funny, however, is that I am returning to school Sunday, yet moving in Monday, to begin what will be my final year at school. Hooray. Good stuff. At least I get to spend a few months mostly away from my family. Big Hooray.

I'll be far away from Kelly, though, so that's a huge bummer. We'll keep chatting and emailing and whatnot, but it's just not the same. We'll figure it out, though.

Oh well, here's to a new year, a new beginning, and hopefully lots of fun.

Cheers.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Pretty Symbolism


Here's the little logo I'm adopting to advertise my devil-worshiping, baby-eating ways.


Update:

minusRusty in the comments told me this is Godfrey Temple's "Affinity" symbol. I like that name better than mine - Infinite A symbol thingy.

By the way, Thanks to minusRusty for being super-awesome for being the only person that I do not know to ever post on my blog!




Sunday, August 10, 2008

Just another random post

I always wonder what other people are thinking about. I don't mean in a "what are you thinking right this moment" kind of way, but, what thoughts are most recurring for them? What's that one thing you seem to dwell on incessantly? For me, it's actually about religion.

I'm still relatively new to the whole atheism game, but I seem to be constantly dwelling on religion(s), religious themes, and I always catch myself looking around for those little religious nuances in everyday life that people use to express themselves in public. I find myself seeing so many 'jesus fish' around where I live, and without fail, my first thought is "Why? Why a fish with a crucifix for eyes?" Also without fail comes my second thought, "Is that thing magnetic, or screwed into the car?"

When not pointing out to myself the obvious fact that the South is religious, always has been religious, and always will be religious, I'm engaging in my favorite pass-time activity, creating scenarios. I wonder if I'd be where I am right now if I had grown up under a more religiously-inclined family, or if I'd grown up Catholic instead of Episcopal. What if my dad had convinced my mom to be Baptist rather than her turning him into an Episcopal? What if I had further pursued my interest in Buddhism and other eastern religions? I wonder if my life choices so far are going to make me ultimately a "bad person" because I have no religion, or if that stigma is just that - a label someone wants to impose on me because they are afraid of dealing with people who do not agree with them 100% on the ultimate authority of the literal truth of the Bible.

Dwelling on the religious is not exactly something I was planning on doing when I decided to, well, abandon religion. I hope it's just one of those phases every new-comer atheist goes through, and I'll be able to do more productive things with my time soon.

HOWEVER, when not being all involved in religion, I just latch onto the most profound thing that affects me. Even if the most startling revelation for the day is that I may never be able to taste the difference between a lemon and a lime, that will be THE main thing I think on all day. I hate being that kind of obsessive.

What I hate even more is when I'm stuck being so obsessive over learning about the actions of some of my friends, and how I begin to wonder if my opinions should change about them, or if I should accept their actions as part of their nature, and continue on as if nothing major has really happened. I mean, the current dwelling hasn't even done anything to me, personally, but her actions bother me. I can't say that I was angry at hearing what she had to say, but I was definitely disappointed by her decisions. However, I have almost no involvement in her life aside from our conversations, but I consider her a friend nonetheless, and it bothered me. I tried to shrug it off and go "well, it's none of my business. It's not part of my life, and I have nothing to do with it." I mean...I used to have feelings for her, and it was only recently when I thought I was finally through with those feelings. This just kinda tugged at them for me, and I don't really enjoy saying that. I have someone in my life now, and she's the most important thing that's ever happened to me, so I shouldn't be feeling the way I am now.

-sighs-

Each day seems to be a different obsession. It's like a "quote of the day" thing; where some people will use that quote to inspire them for the day, my obsessions determine how I'll be for the day. Sometimes it doesn't affect my mood, but some days I want to just hide in my room because I'll most likely lash out at any living being that comes anywhere near me.

I dunno...I guess I'll just deal with things as they come, and keep on keepin' on like I have been. I'm listening to XTC right now, and it's making me happy. Easily one of my all-time favorite bands.

It's now time I bring this little rant to a close. I shall now borrow Pat Condell's closing style with my own thingy:

Peace - because we all need to find it in our own way, rather than having an obscure dogma tell us what they want it to be.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

PZ Myers is a Fantastic Man

He really is.

He is standing up for his beliefs in a way that we all should. As atheists, we need to show that we are NOT afraid of puny crackers.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Love

I'm in love, I have the love of my life, and I'm loving life with my lovely lover.

I never thought I'd use that word so many times in one sentence.

She's that wonderful, and I don't know who I should thank first for having the chance to have even met her in the first place.

LOVE!

If it don't kill you, it's a good thing.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

OH MY GOD THE DOCTOR!

OH MY GOD THE DOCTOR IS TRANSFORMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!!!1!ONE!!!ELEVEN!

1) I thought David Tennant was staying on for another season, or was I being a big fucking idiot?

2) OH MY GOD SARAH JANE, ROSE, MARTHA, CAPTAIN JACK, HARRIETT, DONNA!
-- And, Richard Dawkins!

3) OH MY FUCKING GOD DALEKS!

4) FUCKING DALEKS!!!!!!

5) MOTHERFUCKING DEVROS! DEVROS, GODDAMNIT!

6) I am SO pissed I have to wait the summer for the next season to come up. SO pissed.

7) DALEKS!!!!!!! OMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

8) My head, seriously asploded.

9) DEVROS!

10) OH MY GOD THE DOCTOR'S TRANSFORMING! WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!

Oh, did I also mention Daleks? And Devros? -shudders-

Pardon the Dr. Who geekdom shining through.

Carry on.

-runs away screaming "DEVROS! FUCKING DEVROS!"-

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Love

I'm in love.

I've met someone absolutely amazing, and she seems to care about me....actually care about me, and that is something I never thought I'd feel from another person.

I want her, I want to be with her, and I think she wants the same.

Praise the gods, whichever actually exists and controls such things.

PRAISE THEM, damnit!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Crystal Light's latest ad has subliminal context!



Look at what I found! A Penis!

You can see the add here, and just kinda follow where I have my circle, but on the larger image available. It's blatant! I love it!...the ad I mean...not penis.

Penis.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Halloness

Anyone have ideas for a good "95 theses" type tract I can make to post on some of the 400 billion churches in South Carolina?

I would really like it to be somewhat serious and in defense of atheism, but if that doesn't work, then an insulting tirade will work too.

Cheers.

Monday, May 19, 2008

House Season Finale

Um...yeah, just watched it about 2 hours ago now.

I'll admit it, I cried a bit. I'm not ashamed by that; it struck a chord, a...very personal chord.

I'm still dwelling on the episode, and it's probably going to haunt me for a good while.

Damn, what a finish.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Tropic Thunder

Find the redband trailer for Tropic Thunder. I'm not that huge on Ben Stiller, but...well...I mean...It's got Robert Downey Jr. in black-face, and it looks f-ing hilarious (the movie, not the black-face).

There might finally be a good-ish movie coming out!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Such Bravery...

Our valiant leader, "president" Bush, has announced his own level of sacrifice and commitment when it comes to this brave war in Iraq.

He's given up golfing. If you were expecting more to be said, well, that's all he gave us. Instead of, I don't know, acting like he could actually do something of use, the man who chokes on pretzels decided to give up on fucking golf.

Oh, wait, he's even lying about that little bit. It was because of knee problems that he quit in October, probably.

Come January 20th, or whenever his last day is, there's going to be one hell of a party the world over.

Here's a fun video about the whole thing I found.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Jobby Job Job

I'm starting work back at me ol' job tomorrow. I work 3-closing, so it's an easy settling back into the groove of complacently kowtowing to brash French-Canadians, and penny-pinchers.

At least I'm getting paid.

My horoscope said that something awesome is supposed to happen tomorrow, the 12th. Hopefully it will.

At any rate, here's a fun video.
*Possibly, just possibly, NSFW if your boss is afraid of clowns and/or Crispin Glover*

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Arg!

Man, I seem to be very agitated tonight. I blame it on the horrible sleep last night. /sulk.

Going to go play Harvest Moon and hide in the corner.

Monday, May 5, 2008

Dog Bles Amrika




















Yep.

School Days Are Almost Over

Well, school's almost out for me. I'm heading home Thursday, and maybe I can get started on making decent videos to post. I've made one, but the audio is shite, and the programs I have available to do editing...well...won't let me.

I've got a statistics, journalism, and two English finals to complete by Thursday, and then I can go home! I would like to find the nearest comic-book store real soon, because I want to buy a dice set for a potential D&D career. It would make for a great time killer when I'm not studying around here, and it seems kinda worth getting in to, even if just for one school-year.

I have fallen in love with Steampunk. I will have to find proper tools and burny-melty equipment to mold metals into fun things to play with.

I'm going to sleep now, as this will be the earliest I've gone to bed possibly in a week.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Apologies

I wanted you guys to know that I am sorry for all but exploding emo last night. Not that I'm much better at the current but I guess we'll see how much worse it can get.

I'm fighting down the urge to go throw up everything I've eaten in the past week, main thing is that someone is sure to notice and I really don't want to explain everything to the people I live with (how pathetic is that?).

Am going to go fail at sleep.

Ciao.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Once Again I fail

I never seem to screw up small things, but when its something v. potentially damaging/deadly/expensive as hell, count on me to fuck it up. *sigh*

Anyone know how to get $2,300 before Wednesday? Didn't think so natch.

Suppose it's time to call on my Dad and see how easily he can tell me to go to hell. (I see it being very easy for him)

Ngh, need to get to bed so I can drag my ass to work in a few hours but really, all I feel like doing is curling up in the corner and crying... not that the lump of flesh that I call my boyfriend would notice. Comes home at 945 and just says "Going to bed". HMPH! I swear, I spend more time with the cat than him now-a-days.

Monday, April 28, 2008

Let's All B+

Got me blood donor card today; turns out I'm B+.

I can receive a good number of blood types, but can only give for two. I guess that means I'm kinda in the middle. Hooray average.

Friday, April 25, 2008

Winding Down

Well, the school year is almost done...

I got my paper turned in, somehow, and I got a C on it, somehow.

It's Friday, so that's always nice. I was hoping to go out for wings tonight, but I think some others were considering hitting up a Japanese Steak House, which is fine with me, but just a little more expensive than I was planning on. It's still going out and having fun, so it'll make for a good Friday evening.

I'm not sure how to feel about the close of this year; some of my friends won't be coming back. They somehow have managed to graduate early, with another friend graduating in December. It's kind of sad to think that some of my friends won't be around anymore, but hopefully we'll keep in touch.

Hopefully the summer will bring on fun times and wonderful experiences.

As for the videos I was talk about making earlier, they're going slowly...very, very slowly. I've got one, but my camera pretty much died afterwards, so the whole process is being postponed. It'll help when I buy a decent headset so people can actually hear me, and also when I find a video-editing program that will actually let me edit.

Have a good weekend.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Hi! I exist!

Wow, I know I udderly (lulz) like abandoned this place. (Sorry Hitek! T_T ) Not that much has been going on. I've been working my ass off pretty much. Moved a few times as well.

Shite, I had this long ass post in my mind but I got distracted and couldn't find the connector cord for the camera so I can upload pictures of ugly shoes.

I think I'll make this all for now and try again tomorrow (if I don't get caught breaking the law).

Ciao! <3

Burn-Out

I think I finally burned out.

I really can't handle it anymore here.

I've already just now turned in a late paper that doesn't meet the minimum requirements, which is something I NEVER do.

I just don't do that.

I've always been so damned good at getting things done and turned in, even at the last minute...but not tonight. Something's wrong...something has BEEN wrong for about a month now. I've been in some funk, and I just can't function right.

I don't know when I've felt this disappointed in myself; I can't afford to fuck up now, especially right at the end of the year like this. I'm possibly failing math, and if I fail this English class, and my Journalism class, then I've no fucking chance at graduating next year.

None.

Zilch.

Zip.

Fucking Nada.

What a load of "pride and joy" I am for my family, eh?

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Expounding on Expelled

Well...I saw that so-called 'movie' "Expelled: No Intelligence Allowed".

That was a total waste of $6.50, and some guy that was in the same screening with us thought I was a fellow creationist. I really had to fight to keep from making a scene in public.

He was being sincere in his friendship, I guess, but I was still insulted with being related to his ilk.

I don't really know what to say about the 'documentary' except that it's one of the most poorly constructed pieces of garbage to ever hit the big screen.

Afterwards, me 'n a friend decided on doing a 'double-feature', where we simply walked into the opposing screening room and watched the midnight viewing of "Forgetting Sarah Marshall", which, despite my great fears given the trailers, was not half-bad and actually memorable. Apparently the same crew who did "Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story", or whatever it's called, did this movie too. It was funny, though not my favorite movie by far.

I was disappointed that so few people turned out for Mr. Stein's movie; I wanted to get more opinions about what was thrown at us, but oh well.

Video Blogging

Video Blogging is an issue I'm still kinda conflicted with. I don't know how to feel about them, really. I can see their benefit, if properly done. I do appreciate a good video podcast...

But in the wrong hands, you get Chris Crocker and the likes. It's a waste of time, and pointless bullshit that doesn't do anything for anyone. It's self-indulgence at an even higher degree than regular blogging.

I'm considering making a video or two, just to see how it goes, and if it's worth it. If not, I'll leave it behind and be done. If I like it, then, well...hopefully it'll have some substance to it.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Expelled in My Town!

I'm planning on going to see Ben Stein's "Expelled: No Intelligence Allowed" tonight! Apparently the admission is free for those who get there by 7:30 (so I'm thinking a campus group is hosting it). I'm going to be printing up mini-fliers with Expelled-busting information from Scientific American, and anywhere else I can find juicy facts.

I'm hoping to get a group together to hand out these things directly after the movie, and possibly lob jeers at Mr. Stein every time we see him on the screen.

Now, don't get me wrong, I really enjoyed watching "Win Ben Stein's Money", but, his pro-ID(iocy) stint has really lowered my respect for the man.

Oh me, oh my, I might get 'expelled' myself tonight! I can't wait!

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Reflections

I reflect on a lot of things, and quite often too. I can't really say that anything significant, or life-altering has come from this, but it's a habit that I've never really broken. I tend to dwell on the negative, almost to the point where it seems like my day isn't complete if I don't do that.

I was talking to a friend of mine the other night, about some of my feelings about myself, and the world around me. I came to realize that some of the things I expressed sounded quite like the things an existentialist might say. In class today, we were going over Walt Whitman's "Song of Myself"; there was a passage that really struck me as familiar, which is what reminded me of the other night.

Whitman discusses the "Me myself" as he puts it. There seems to be a distinction between body & soul, and body & mind in his writing, which, I somehow understand. The only problem is, I feel a connection to this writing, yet I cannot put it into words just how powerful this understanding is. I literally have no way of expressing this conscious connection that I have, which is one of the biggest problems I feel that I face in my life.

I so desperately want to bring out into the open, this side of myself, this unspoken, unseen consciousness, because I know that is where my true thoughts come from. I've never felt comfortable in my own skin, as a human being. I see this flesh, this mass in the mirror and I feel sick at times, thinking that this is how I come across, how people perceive me and I see just how hindered my soul / mind is, because it is not reflected at all through my body. My actions are not as strong and as meaningful as they should be, because these actions have been performed by others throughout time. The words I speak have been spoken, were created far before the times of my earliest recorded ancestors, and yet as timeless as these words are, they do not express fully what I feel, what I think and see.

In this world, this realm of existence, there is the "me". You see me, I see me, and I see you. We are all just manifestations of our consciousness; a physicality brought about by, and used with our thoughts. In this world, our bodies do not accurately portray our thoughts and real, inner selves, however. This desire to be seen for what we really are can be witnessed in movies, such as where more evil, sinister characters have some grotesque feature about them, while braver, heroic people can exhibit a kind of beauty.

In this existence, brave people are not always beautiful, and the most evil certainly aren't always ugly. This "Me myself" that's been acknowledged by Whitman and countless others, is in my opinion what makes us individuals. This self is what makes us feel that we are our own unique person. We cannot readily portray this in the physical realm, because there are so many limitations. Art, Music, and literature all strive so hard to express this deeper, internal aspect of our being, yet cannot seem to completely bring it out.

The "Me myself" is a separate being from our physical bodies. Some may see it as their "third eye"; others may feel that when you find this, you have reached Enlightenment, that you have discovered your own consciousness in the eternal stream of collective conscious. Some call it your soul, others say spirits. We all know this aspect exists, but nobody can ever seem to fully grasp it, or at least give it a physical, more attainable form. It may very will be impossible to do, but my life has been so heavily influenced by the need to find a way to give a physical nature to this self. I have to know what it is that really makes me, me. I want to fully incorporate this self into my present existence, and show all who I really am, what I am fully capable of being.

It hurts to think that you can be hindered by your body in trying to achieve something that no physical form seems able to conquer. I may just be rambling now, but I know that this is just an unpolished idea that many people have wrestled with before, and I wish I could find a solution before it's too late.

This is why I actually took up Astral Projection. It's a fascinating idea, but one I haven't been able to master yet. It sounds like the greatest way for me to find my inner me, as I detach from the physical realm and can freely explore the otherness. My answer may be lying out there, in this other realm, and I just can't get to it yet. I've heard that all things come in good time, but I tend to be impatient when it comes to finding the answer to my existence.

I don't know...things could be a lot simpler than I'm making them, but then again I may not even be scratching the surface. Either way, here's a fun video to make up for this utterly confusing post.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Rainy Days are Here Again

It's raining...

Not enough really to need an umbrella; it's actually just the right amount where you kinda want to stay outside and enjoy how it feels. It's not often I get to feel that...

The cold makes each drop even more noticeable, and that much more enjoyable. They fell on my face as I was headed to work, gently, as though they were playfully challenging me. Light pokes, almost happy to be falling from the skies; it's weird to give a feeling, an emotion to rain, but it felt good.

The clouds were not heavy like they had been for the majority of the day. Small streaks of the evening's orange hue accentuated just how intimidatingly vast and boring these gray, rolling clouds were.

I wish I had more time to just sit outside in the rain, and just relax. This kind of weather is absolutely perfect in my mind, and I really do wish there was more time....just a little more.

Here's another video for those who want a mood booster.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

The Digital Cuttlefish

This person is quite brilliant.

http://digitalcuttlefish.blogspot.com/2008/03/i-thought-i-saw-atheist.html

For Your Information

I'm an atheist, goddammit...

There. I finally said it.

I may want to reconsider this statement in the morning, but as of right now, fuck it.

a-t-h-e-i-s-t.

Deal.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

And How We Danced...

...in the mud. Tonight's Shag on the Mag was alright, entertaining as always, but with one minor exception. The rain we'd gotten all day, and for a good part of yesterday, had thoroughly soaked the ground, even what was beneath the tent, so that we were all pretty much drudging about in mud. Fortunately, my shoes wiped clean and a quick visit to the laundry cleaned my pants right up. It's only 4:30 am anywhow...

For some reason, I just can't seem to get fully into these events; there's always something that just kills the mood for me and I can't get into a fun-place anymore. I feel like my date could have had more fun with someone else, but I'm sure anyone who hangs around me could have more fun being around someone else. I really wish I could simply do more to try and make things much more enjoyable for everyone, but it's this nagging feeling of isolation that never goes away, hence the nagging bit.

I didn't know any of her friends...hell...I still don't know HER all that well, and she's graduating early and going away, so...so much for whatever was there to begin with. They (her friends) seem like nice enough people, but there's just something that doesn't exactly click, and I still feel like an outsider, even though they know me by name.

This whole week has really just been miserable, and I guess I was still in a funk today, even with the prospect of partying. The mud sure as hell didn't help.

I told myself when creating this blog that I wouldn't just post bitchings left and right, but...well...it's my blog so if I need to just talk for the sake of talking, then I'm doing that.

I don't really have anything important, or relevant, or special to say, but sometimes it's just good to write whatever comes to mind. Mine has been racing non-stop this week, even more than usual, to the point where I feel like if I somehow stop thinking so much, I'm just going to have a massive headache from exhaustion.

When it's not my mind shifting constantly about about, I'm feeling lonely, like there's some void that can't be filled, and will never be filled.

I dunno...maybe this will help.

**As it turns out, I fell asleep before posting this, but I guess I'll post anyway.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Complaint # 14,782

This school is run by bureaucratic shitiots (yes that's a term!) who can't tell their elbow from their ass.

Every year the screw me over in some way at registration time, but NOW they're risking my graduation. I'm not letting them do that. Sadly, I have to get my family to help, since they're the ones with the money. It kills me that I can do nothing unless I were to hold $40,000 to their face and say "fix it".

I failed my stats test today, meaning I'm probably going to fail yet another math course. There's a rumor that the Registrar can just cancel the requirement, and if true, I'm hitting that up. If it's not, then I'm probably not going to graduate regardless of earlier circumstances.

My roommate is a seedy, self-absorbed, un-deservingly arrogant asswipe who has just been given too much in his life and needs a serious fucking reality check. For the first time ever I actually felt threatened by this twat, despite his being a twig. Sure, he's in ROTC and knows like 5 moves that can kill me, but I have the elements on my side -- I own a fold-up chair that's quite light. I'm actually going to see about getting a single to get away from him for the remaining 5 weeks of school. I canNOT handle being around him anymore.

Today sucks.

Today really, really sucks.

Maybe this will help.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Yet Another Good Excuse to Get a Tattoo

Whenever this concept gets fully approved for human use, I'm gonna have to try it out.
Happy (belated) Easter to all of you who observe such holidays. To those who don't, if you got the weekend off, congrats.

Mine was spent in a pretty sporadic fashion; I slept for about 1 hour out of the first 48 of my time off, and I felt more awake and alive than I had all that week. It was nice to have some decent weather over the break; it got to about 80 degrees for one of the days, so I went for a walk. By our school is the Reynolda Gardens; it's free to the public, but open for only a few hours each day. The greenhouses are nice, and the best part of them is the cactus collection. I'll have to be sure to take some photos when I get a chance to go back, especially when everything is in full bloom. The weeping cherry trees were especially peaceful to watch in the breeze...

My night life wasn't as exciting as it could be, given that most of the clubbing-type folk were gone. However, I did spend it with a great friend enjoying vodka-pineapple smoothies and tequila shots (they did not partake in the tequila, however) while watching Hot Fuzz and Bad Boys.

Yesterday, I had the chance to see Horton Hears a Who, which, to my surprise, was enjoyable. I did not exactly look forward to seeing it when I started the venture, but I figured it couldn't be as big a waste of money as the failure known as Beowulf. Don't get me wrong, the book was fantastic, but the only good part of the film was how they portrayed Grendel. Having Crispin Glover play him was the only smart thing about the movie.

ANYWHO, Horton was decent. It was funny, stayed true in an overall sense to the book (I've never read the book, but so what?), and even kept my attention. I can definitely see why it's number 1 in the box office; it's definitely better than most of the garbage that's being dumped on us.

Friday, March 14, 2008

I Knew It!

Alright, let's go ahead and get this out of the way: I hate gnomes. With a burning passion so deep, so powerful, that if concentrated, it could melt steel. I hate garden gnomes, lawn gnomes, and whatever else you want to call them. I'm normally a fairly rational and reasonable person, but I canNOT stand those little bastards, and honestly do believe there is some evil intent behind their design.

Ladies and gentlemen, I present to you now EVIDENCE that I am not insane. I have stated quite often to my friends that gnomes would one day start a revolution against mankind, and here is that evidence. Why they started in South America is beyond me, but hopefully the villagers can kill it dead.

Arbitrary Posting

It's been a while, so I figured I'd post something for the heck of it.

I would go into this whole political rant over why I don't want to really support either candidate of the Democratic party that's still running (though I've never supported a Republican), and I could take a good page to do that. However, it would just turn out to be the same old rhetoric everyone else is spewing. I do want to say that my mom did make the smartest statement that she's ever made concerning our discussions on politics today: "I just think I'm not going to vote." I really do think that'd be best for her, anyway. Honestly, it really is the most logical thing she's said concerning politics.

ANYWAY, so instead of political rants, here's a video of Disco Ernie, an 88-year old male stripper.

*Update* -
I regret to announce that apparently Ernie died in 2003 at the tender age of
89. Damn shame; I was hoping to get him for my friend's upcoming 21st.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Hamas Bunny Is Here to Play (and Eat Jews)




Yep...I knew brainwashing children was always an interesting idea, but I didn't think people would go this far with it. I guess we gotta raise our little terrorists somehow.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

In Search For...

A human-sized hamster-ball. A big, plastic, hamster-ball.

I found this one group, Zorb, and they have a great idea. Still not exactly what I want, though.

I'm probably going to have to make my own.

Rainy Days

It's raining here at school. I should go out and take some photos when it starts up again. It'd be great it we had more fog tonight; the campus is so beautiful when the shroud begins to fall. Everything becomes more imposing, prominent; even the chapel appears to be more looming than usual, with the steeple fading away into nothingness as the fog takes over.

I love rain.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Blackberry Rules Email.

One of these days I'll actually go through the 100+ emails that have accumulated in my gmail inbox since I got my blackberry.... nah.

Sent from my BlackBerry(jk) wireless device.

Can Cuba Cope with Castro Number Two?

"Fidel Castro's nearly five decades of rule ended Sunday when Cuba's National Assembly chose his younger brother Raul to be the country's new president.
The lawmakers' selection, which had been widely expected, came five days after Fidel Castro, 81, announced his resignation in a letter published in the state-run newspaper Granma.
In his address to the National Assembly, the 76-year-old Raul Castro proposed that "we consult Fidel" on important decisions. The 614 members of the legislative body passed that motion unanimously."


The rest can be read here.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I, for one, welcome our new overlord.

Hullo all! I am the benevolent Buni. Your new "co-God" so to speak. (We'll let Hitek have his fantasy for now)

I just wanted to pop in before bed and introduce myself. Things to expect in the future: amazing rants about my job in online retail, stories of family, love and some really messed up friends.

/bye

Mitosis: it happens

Well, now there are two narcissists here. There are now two admins / authors, and we're not afraid to abuse our privileges.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Winning is Not Everything




Here's some random gloating of my lolskillz. I submitted this to icanhascheezburger a little bit ago. Hope it's a hit!

Friday, February 22, 2008

Peanut Butter: A Nightmarish Explanation of Science





Yep, Peanut Butter sure proved us all wrong there. Maybe I can bring some bananas over and we'll have a party.

Sweet Sweetback, and Another Weak Day at The Pit

Hello world,

I'm posting today from The Pit -- my school's version of a cafeteria. To put it simply, anything run by Aramark is a bad idea; therefore, The Pit, is a bad idea. Here's an example of what I was served today: Chicken Alfredo. Normally, this would be a good idea if it wasn't for the fact that I was given half of a piece of chicken combined with 1/4 of another. I did take a photo, and will be posting that later. The chicken was actually undercooked, as well. I love corporate takeovers of private school property. In the end, the Pit generally has half-decent desserts. One of them is this weird, radioactive-looking chocolate cookie with mint. It's like a giant version of Thinmints. I'll be posting a photo of that too. If you ever see a radioactive-looking cookie, eat it.

Aside from the food, I was talking today with some friends about this interesting movie from the 70's: a blacksploitation film called "Sweet Sweetback's Badassssssssssss Song". It's essentially a porno with a bit of violence every now and then, so I'll be subjecting a group to watch this with me tonight. I'll let you all know how it goes.

First Day on the Job

Hello, world.

My name is Keith, and this is my first post on my first blog. While I don't really have anything to say at the moment, given that I need to be up in five hours, I feel that I should at least welcome you all, and I hope to be posting a lot more soon.

Things to look for (in the near future):

- Updates on how school is going
- Random thoughts and musings
- Rants
- A chance to give your opinion about topics I may bring up, allowing all of us to engage in
an intellectual debate, of sorts.